I thought I did my best..

I SUDDENLY FEEL SO DEPRESSED & PRESSURISED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to climb onto a mountain & shout whatever i could think of and just break down = =


I think i'm already too tired =.=

I feel like everthing's crushing on me right now.

I change diffrent feelings every 5 min's and I'm even starting to HEAR stuff.

gawd please tell me it ain't depression. ( how the fuck did i end up thinking i'm getting depression? =.=)



I was freaking agiated 10 min's ago.
everything anyone said & i saw became something like "you're a fuck face" to me.

depressed 5 min's ago.
nothing seemed right.
I felt like a loser. I lost everything. I'm not saying anything right. I'm always in the wrong.

I felt a wave of PEACE & dizziness after that =_= but it only lasted for 30 seconds.

After that I thought I heard far away voices whispering.

WHAT THE FUX IS HAPPENING WOR??!!!

*bangs head on keyboard*

Now I see alot of "imaginary" flash backs flashing right infront of the computer screen.

I'm not a robot.I really want to keep on smiling & laugh no matter what happens,be that buddy that you can count on when you're down.. but I still can't change the fact that I'm a human.
I'm not a superwoman. I don't like working every now & then,it squeezes every ounce of my energy out.it makes my head ache. but i have to. or where am i supposed to save money?
I'm not a Les.(no offence to those out there who are.i'm just down. =( )
I respect woman. Because without a woman's womb for babies to rest inside for 9-10 month's there would be no humans.
But I don't LOVE woman as a guy does. I think every girl is pretty & mysterious at the same time. Because there's always another side of them below their exterior. And it takes so much time for a person to truely find out their inner most personality.

I look below average / average. and i know that. I get self concious very easily. it doesn't take much to crumble me.


I think this is one of the days that I NEED TO CRY. like a real cry. have to open up your soul and have a super weep = =




Dane cook totally represents my feelings now.

oh shit. i'm really starting to have "pre cry breaths" while watching his comedies. = =


WHAT'S NEXT =_=